what is important to you

i knew this long time ago.. just that i do not want to accept it, trying hard to find excuses for you.. until one day, i realized that this is the truth, and i can't blind myself anymore..

I'm not sure you realize this or not, in your life, the first priority is your career. Anything related to your work, you going to ignore the others like your family and me, this is tested and proven.. i can't comment much on this as it is normal for men to concentrate on their career..

second thing is yourself.. you love playing computer games, read those soccer news whenever you're free... you prefer spending all your time with your computer compare to me.. so sad to say that.. I learn to accept the truth..

After yourself, family and friend are the next thing.. i don't want to judge on this.. you know how you treat them compare to me..

Where am I? I'm the least priority. everything come first, me last.. When I date you for lunch, you say you going out with your colleague, thinking of going for a movie with you, you say that movie not nice / you're tired after work.. so i make up my mind, not to ask you out for lunch during weekday lunch time, not to ask you for a movie after work.. sit and wait for one day you notice I'm still here but grow older.. waiting for the hopeless hope to come true...

认真地想。。。

前天在云顶你很严肃地和我说了一些话，你说你是个很闷的人，只喜欢打电动，如果我忍受不了这样的生活，这样的你，最好说出来。。。

听了这些话，我傻了。。。我很想哭。。。我知道我一个很闷的人，但偶尔我会想出外走走，看看外面的世界。。。可是我需要人家陪着我，就算是远远的看着我也好。。。我开始想，两个闷瓜在一起会是怎样的，不就是哪里都没去，什么都没经历。。。原来只是喜欢是不够的，我还学不会忍受坐在你身边却被你冷落的感觉。。。你的眼里就真的只有电脑的游戏。。。

这是我要的生活吗？我可以忍受这样的过一生吗？我会习惯吗？

我不知道。。。我不会决定，但我是很喜欢你的。。。很爱你的。。。